a traumatic event

always helps to put things in perspective.

lets go enjoy life

changes

you see them approaching for a long time but they happen rapidly and violently. this year will go by faster than all the others. i have so much appreciation for everything in my life. my biggest fear right now is forgetting these feelings and memories that are currently so monumental and are shaping me into my future being. life is short as shit

been thinking and understanding a lot lately.

i realize that situations are looked at differently from every perspective.

people all have their own ideas and beliefs and no one has any right to tell them that they are wrong.

people deal with the circumstances they are put in to the best of their ability whether they realize it or not.

people are forever changing both in a negative and positive way.

happiness is situational.



thanks to the graduating class serving as a constant reminder that we are getting older and will soon be "adults," i am becoming more and more nervous but also accepting. i realize that there is nothing i can do to prevent the coming of time, nor can i change the things in my past. all i can do is try to affect as many of the people who i am close to in a positive way, and try to leave them happier and more satisfied than when i met them. i feel as though im reaching a turning point in my life and i hope to utilize this summer not only for recreation and relaxation, but also for realization and soul searching. i still do not know who i am or who i want to be, but i feel as though im closer to knowing than i ever have been before.

28 days 6 hours 42 minutes 12 seconds

until the world ends. fml.

tired of this shit. i feel so detached from reality. its like my body and mind are separate and they are unable to communicate with each other. i wish i had someone to talk to.

Fuck That

I know this shit isn't just in my head.

with your feet in the air and your head on the ground

3/9/10 cont
late night tray sliding with daniel ftw!

3/10/10
1st- rush to put together hill binder
2nd- correct tests
3rd- mando and matt
4th- get daniel in trouble. partner work with ariooh
5th- ramos is a dick. strategize for dodgeball
6th- soo boring!

after school went to l&l. got dropped off. chilled and then slept for ages. woke up and felt hella lethargic. work on car a bit.

step 1

3/9/10
1st- tried to organize hill binder.
left at passing period to avoid hills class.
came back at break
left after break

home. cleaned my room. tried to work on the car but it was a wasted effort. chilled.

failed trip to yummy sushi. wendys then my house with sam. hang out wiht daniel for a bit. craigslist meet up. +55

now im just putting off all of this hw that i need to do. ugh